chariot_to_somewhere

treat yo'self!

2018-12-28T15:00:34Z

questionoftheday asks: What was the best thing you ever splurged on? How about the worst?

My answer:

Managing money is not one of my strong suits. And as an underpaid millennial in a mountain of student debt it's probably not the best skill to be lacking in.
That being said, I've splurged on two things this year that have been absolutely amazing and I can't imagine not having done it.

I bought myself a shiatsu back massage pillow. One that sits perfectly in the small of my back and also works on my upper back in a wonderful way. Even just sitting with it at the small of my back and not even being turned on is amazing.

The other thing is the Nintendo Switch, I've only had it for two weeks and I love it. Even playing BotW for the second time (played it on the ex's switch last year) is so great. It probs wasn't the best financial decision but I've already gotten so much use out of it. I even have a grip case coming in the mail tomorrow because my poor arthritic thumbs need more support.

Honestly, I don't even really know what the worst splurge would be. I think probably my corner desk at home. I purchased it because I was told I would get to work from home after the move I did earlier in the year. And I splurged on a large corner desk to have enough space for a work computer and my own personal desktop. But I did that before it was 100% confirmed that I was going to get to work from home. I've found a use for it, and it's still nice to have more flat space for crafting. But the space is tighter now that I'm back living with my parents.

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Sleeping Question

2018-12-26T17:41:30Z

questionoftheday asks: Do you sleep in silence, or do you have to have background noise? Is there a reason for this? How about light? Does it have to be pitch black, or do you need at least a sliver of light to sleep?

My answer:

This is one of those questions that you would assume has a simple answer. And I wish it did.
If I'm going to bed for the night my room has to be cool, I have to have at least a sheet covering me. I prefer silence if I can get it. But currently my bed shares a wall with my parents' bed and they both snore. So I have a fan running to block that out because the sound of snoring bothers me too much to sleep through. Often times I'll put on a podcast with a soothing voice to fall asleep to, like the Sleep With Me podcast. Mostly on nights when my brain wont shut off.
I cannot share a bed, my ex fiance and I even had separate bedrooms when we lived together. Because I just couldn't sleep with someone else in the bed. And the snoring was a factor there as well. The darker the room the better, even a little bit of light can get super annoying if I'm having a painsomnia episode.

If I'm having a nap attack, the only part of the above conditions that matters is the snoring. I can take a nap pretty much any time, any place, with anything going on. I can nap siting up at my desk, fingers on the keyboard. At my old job, I'd take waking naps, while my client slept. I'd be sitting on a chair or a sofa, phone alarm set to buzz every 5 or 10 minutes, and I'd doze between buzzes. Never falling asleep enough to not be aware. But it was a life saver when I was working 14 hour days. And now, at my desk job I could do the same at my old desk location and wake up fast enough when my phone connected to a call. yay hypersomnia and daytime somnolence!!!

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exhaustion

2018-12-15T19:32:33Z

I'm so close to falling asleep at my desk right now. I had a big ass coke with my lunch and it's done nothing for my energy level. Morning came very quickly and my alarm pulled me out of a wonderfully deep sleep. I had to take my 2nd muscle relaxer last night because my back hurt and my jaw did something weird that felt like a pulled muscle for a bit. Kind of reminded me of when I sublux my knee.
Anyway I'm stuck at work trying not to fall asleep at my desk while using my hooked back massager. two and a half hours to go

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i'd rather be sleeping

2018-12-15T13:30:58Z

We rotate Saturdays at work and today is mine and I really don't want to be here. I'd much rather be sleeping or playing pokemon. But mostly sleeping.
My team mate who's on today is waaaayy too chatty for me having been awake for less than 2 hours.

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duolingo

2018-12-14T18:16:39Z

Yesterday I started trying to learn Esperanto on Duolingo. It would be really awesome if it really was the universal language it was intended to be. Like common in the D&D world.

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merr crismus

2018-12-13T16:22:08Z

to myself!

I got my work bonus today and it's all pretty much spent. Paying bills but also getting myself a switch, lets go eevee, and breath of the wild. And my dad's gifts. Now i just gotta wait to see who my gift exchange person is at work and get something else for my mom other than the colored hair wax and i'll be done. Shiny dicies for the d&d group should be delivered tomorrow too. so yay.

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hypsersomnia life

2018-12-13T01:37:21Z

I'm so tired. It's not even 8:30pm and I'm ready to go to bed. I could fall asleep sitting up in the living room.

Being tired all the time is exhausting. Physically and emotionally. At work today keeping my eyes open was just so difficult. The burning pain in my eyes.

During my week off I need to remember to make an appointment for the sleep study my PCP wants me to do. And the hematology appointment. And the GI appointment.

ugh it's exhausting and expensive

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the great tumblr purge

2018-12-10T20:13:39Z

questionoftheday asks: What is your internet history? What websites were you a part of that might not be around anymore, and do you have any fond memories of them?

My answer:

I've grown up as the internet did. At least as the internet we know now did. I've adapted as social media has changed and popular websites made their rounds. I was 12 when I first learned about instant messaging on AOL. Even before AIM was it's own thing. And my longest internet friendship is from that time. I've known her for more than half my life and we live a world apart from each other.

Aol chatrooms were my first introduction into talking to random people with similar interests. My very first fandom was Charmed, I spent many hours hanging out and chatting with the same group of people until AOL chatrooms kind of died down. I still remember their names. Misty, Erica, Ariel, Ray, and Gemma. I'm still friends with Gemma.

I somehow missed the xanga thing and then MySpace happened. It's been so long that I don't even know what my log in information or even my screen name for MySpace would be. I don't remember much except for the note posts and the top 8. It was really just a way that my IRL friends and I kept in contact. LJ came after that, I tried to use but never really got into it. I'm sure it still exists somewhere, lost to the history of unused internet accounts. I spent a lot of time on FF.N, I have another internet friend named Nat that I think messaged me first on there. But I can't really be sure because it's been so long.

Facebook started to become the big thing when I was in high school and I avoided it for a while but eventually joined. I like it for keeping in contact with people I know IRL. Except for a few internet friends that are on there. There's also a large sloth community on FB, fans of Amanda Palmer and her patreon supporters and it's a great place to belong. The ex and I couch crashed in Boston for a Dresdon Dolls concert because of the sloth community and people willing to open their homes to other fans.

Before tumblr, a big thing I used was a zboard. I think that's what it was. It was a fan made message board specifically for the Callica ship from Greys Anatomy. And this board was so so so important to little queer me. I met my first girl friend on that site, and we even got to meet in person when she came to NYC with her family. Two of my friends from there who met there got married the other year. Two others fly from Sweden and Seattle to see each other a few times a year. And I'm still in contact with them all. It was a wonderful
place and I'm so glad it existed right around the time that I was coming out.

Right as that was coming to a close, Tumblr became the THING. And I got hooked right away. Honestly, there's not too many people from Tumblr that I talk to on the regular. J (kneesntoess go check her out) is one of my best friends and I met her on there. Someday we will be in the place and get to meet in person. And I cannot wait for that hug.
There were and are a bunch of different communities within Tumblr that I belonged to. I practice Tarot and am part of the divination community on Tumblr and have a few friends from there. One that I even met in person just a few months before she moved from our mutual location down to another state. The Call the Midwife fandom is so wonderful on there too. J and I are writing a fanfic for that and everyone is just so lovely and supportive.

As horribly toxic as tumblr can be as whole, I'm sad to see that it's imploding. But it happens and I'm glad I can stay in contact through other social media platforms.

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crushed, but not really

2018-12-10T19:45:55Z

questionoftheday asks: Have you ever run into a former crush or love interest, and wondered what you ever saw in them? (question submitted by author_by_night)

My answer:

OMG yes. So gosh, two years ago now? I think? My now permanently ex fiance and I were broken up for about three months. And in that time I started seeing a woman we're just gonna call J. We're still facebook friends and all that and I'm rooting for her to live her best life. She's super sweet and nerdy but omg idk how I found her attractive in a romantic sense.

TBH I have this feeling about a lot of my exes and I can probably blame low self esteem for why I dated them. They thought I was pretty and were attracted to me and that made me feel good so I went with it. That's how I ended up kinda dating a Mormon boy for almost 2 months. But boyo wanted a bit more than I was willing to give because bro, no feelings. Just cuddles.

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What was the dumbest, most embarrassing injury you ever obtained?

2018-12-10T19:39:00Z

questionoftheday asks: What was the dumbest, most embarrassing injury you ever obtained?

My answer:

I know it's no longer the 9th, but whatever whatever I do what I want. But considering I was in the location where I obtained my stupidest and most embarrassing injury this weekend for a holiday party, I had to go with this one.

When I was fifteen, a friend of mine had her sweet sixteen party at a haunted castle. Now, I'm not in a fancy place of the world that has REAL castles. But this place was inspired a 13th century castle and was the summer home of an old super rich family that now has historical ties to the area in which I live. As 90s kids do when we have a party and there's a DJ, there's going to be some rad 90s pop playing. Everyone was having a grand old time dancing to Wanna Be by the Spice Girls.

And well I tried to zigga zigahhh and landed on the ground in pain. My upper body zigged while my left knee zagged and popped out of place. Luckily it popped back into place when I hit the ground. I don't remember the actual falling bit, just the pain of the joint sliding the wrong way, and then looking at the shins of my friends. Also...I screamed. I had no idea what the fuck had happened, but I hurt and was no longer standing so I screamed.

Dislocating your knee at a friend's sweet sixteen is pretty much the epitome of embarrassing injuries in my life. We weren't even dancing to something cool. No it had to be the Spice Girls.

This was also the injury that set me on the now nearly decade and a half journey of chronic pain. I still sublux my left knee regularly and have sprained it at least two times since. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

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sleepy

2018-12-09T17:53:19Z

I have all the sleepies. I did the sleep over night. Good heavy sleeps even. But now my everything feels heavy and sore and ugh I hate chronic fatigue.

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my name is shanna

2018-12-07T17:58:10Z

There are very few people who can get away with calling me variations of my name. An old friend of mine calls me Banana. My parents are the only ones allowed to call me Shanna Banana, well my friend J could probably get away with it too.

I do not like being called Shan. I never have. Like even as a kid I HATED it. My one work friend keeps calling me Shan out of a weird habit she formed. I've had to tell her like 3 times just today to not call me that. I don't know why I don't like it. It just rubs me the wrong way.

this post is brought to you by me being super annoyed (and bored) at work.

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also

2018-12-07T16:00:40Z

I want to snuggle my cat.

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fridays are almost harder than mondays

2018-12-07T15:59:54Z

The end of the week is in sight. I get to leave about an hour early because of the wonderful thing that is PTO. So I get to start my weekend early. AND I took Monday the 10th off. So it's a loooong weekend.

And UGH I just wanna be home. I'm super sleepy but not actually tired which is a weird feeling. But *shrug* that's my life.

I have just 5 hours and 45 minutes until I get to go home, play some Sims and watch murder docs.

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Jumping Ship

2018-12-06T23:09:41Z

w h e l p

Here we are, another social media site is on its last legs and we're all off to find a new platform to cyberly exist. I don't know if DW will be the next thing or if it'll be PillowFort, or if Tumblr will just give up and go back to how it was ignoring pretty much everything but letting us have our titties.

If you've followed me from Tumblr, welcome aboard! If you just found me through some other means hiya! I'm not sure what all will be posted here. Maybe it'll be random shit, maybe it'll be actual posts about my life. Possibly even a bit more organized than my Tumblr ever was.

Things to be expected: cats, cute things, chronic illness stuff, video games, D&D, fandoms. It's all really just a grab bag.

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